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God is not FAIR…but He is JUST: My Testimony (Part 4)

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In all this, God has shown me His Great Power, which is both reassuring, and bone chilling at the same time, for me. All with great reverence for God, the Father of Creation. He showed me in all this that God never forgets the tears shed by a loyal, humble heart, and the need for forgiveness, because this is what He commands of us. It was 18 years of tears, of having holidays without family, and them continuously trying to justify why they all took active part in the support of this event, so that they can hide the truth from now the new inlaws coming into the family (otherwise it will show their true nature), and the younger cousins that were too young to know what happened. God also taught me, that no matter what earthly title someone holds in your life, mother, father, uncle, aunt, cousin, friend, stranger… that evil will use ANYONE for its purpose. This is why God states that He should be first and foremost in one’s life. So that we can have the guidance of the Holy Spirit to help us discern the deception of evil. This is when God made me understand that His Ways are not of the world’s ways, but are beyond them. That our reliance in life, should be solely on Him, and He will always provide. He means business when it comes to this. At the same time, for putting God first and foremost in our lives, we will be tested and tried even harder by Satan and his demons. Because if we hold on to that unforgiveness, this only allows for Satan and his demons to grab onto souls faster. I can honestly say that I have forgiven my Uncle, though never officially hearing the words “I’m sorry” from him. As to what I think my uncle came away with in all this, well, that is up to God now, as to determining his repentance, and whether it was true in His Eyes, for what he did to me and family, on that day. Upon his last breath on this earth, his story was written in its final form, in God’s Book. Those of us still on this earth, still have another chance to make things right in God’s Eyes, as to the harm we cause one another….and the forgiveness that we share. Love and forgiveness is what God DEMANDS and COMMANDS for us to do, and this is what Jesus Christ showed us on the Cross.

God showed me that He truly does protect His Children….and that He will let those that have offended us, know that they are getting some kind of reproof or correction based on what was done in violation to you, as His Faithful Servant. He showed me that there is no expiration date on a wrong committed, so the very moment that God reveals to us the wrong we committed to another member of our fellow man, it is our responsibility to make it right, at that moment, to which God reveals it to us. If we don’t He will correct us or punish us for not listening and obeying. He also showed me that He is so holy that He does keep account of every violation committed against His Divine Laws of Love. So it is our responsibility to continuously repent, to lead to the conversion of the mind, body, and soul; to become born again in soul and spirit. With parental care, for those that carry the testimony of His Unconditional Love, He puts you under His Providence. That someone who was once comfortable in living in the ways of this world, no longer is. I was transformed in this experience, to know of the Justice God can provide; and to know that we are required to recognize the sinful human nature, and to continuously repent for our violations against His Divine Laws of Love, even until our last breaths on this earth.

I do not rejoice in any of this in what has happened in the earthly sense, but in this experience, it has become my testimony in how God is a JUST Father; yet to continuously refine ourselves, to rid ourselves of our sinful human nature, we are required to go through the trials, to break ourselves away from the world’s ways, so that the Holy Spirit can enter and refine our souls; since God says His Ways are not of the world’s, but are beyond them. Life on this earth may not be FAIR….but God requires us to be tested to see if our conversion is true. He is a Pure and Holy God, and our sinful human nature can not stand before His Pure and Holy Throne. We have to be continuous refined…continuously tested. This is my testimony of God’s great power and mercy. May all glory be His now and forever.

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God is not FAIR…but He is JUST: My Testimony: Where God is Faithful to Those That are Persecuted (Part 3)

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My Testimony Continued…….

The school saw that these guys were hanging around for a long time….so a warrant was issued for their arrest. My parents had dropped the order of protection and case against my uncle, in fear of my safety, though I begged them not to do so, and reassured them that I am ok…with God’s verses up above. The guys were eventually caught at the border about to cross over to the next state. I came to later find out that the husband of sister #2, whose son was staying at our house, which was told by my cousin, himself, to my father; bailed out the 3 culprits (one being my uncle’s brother-in-law; and sister #3’s son-1/4 older cousins, was the one sent from the US, with the money needed to fund this whole stunt in abroad…YES, they paid people to come after me). So in essence, not only did any of the other siblings get involved in helping me and my family out…..but they were taking an active role in it; and supporting the cause of this one uncle.

After this incident, these 6 siblings decided to break away from having any relationship WITH US so that the truth can be rewritten to protect themselves, and to justify what happened.  It is always easier to put the blame on 1 family, as opposed to the 6 standing together and condoning this to occur, I suppose. They had to rewrite history, in order to hide the truth, so that their lives, with their children can move on. Whenever asked to talk things through for the past 18 years, whenever we bumped into them within the community, to mend things, the saying “no need to talk about the past”…or to “forgive and forget” were said. Who is the father of deception and lies….Satan himself; allowing for pride to get in the way of mending with full disclosure of the wrong, to the wronged party. This is why till this day, I do not hesitate to say “I’m sorry” to someone, because I know how it feels to the extreme, to be wronged.

WHAT FATHER GOD REVEALED TO ME, IN THIS TESTIMONY….

I learned at this time that it was only God that protected me from any harm, during this time in my life. He put the right people and circumstances in front of me, to provide His Protection. Not only that, He was speaking to me through Scripture. He called me out to be His Own, and that I can rely on Him during one the most traumatizing moments in my life, where all earthly logic has failed, and no one around you understands. Till this day, many can not understand how this was acceptable to be done within a family. But from that moment on, I dedicated my life to God, and in a letter I found that I wrote to my parents at that time, I kept to my promise as to keeping Jesus Christ’s commandment of “turning the other cheek”; instead of even thinking of vengeance (picture of letter seen below). Instead, I put it all in God’s Hands, for His Will to be done of my life, and dedicated myself to God.

Fast forward to about 18 years later. This same uncle who did this to me (who is the youngest of the 7 siblings), my family has come to know was about to die of cancer. My mother being the oldest, wanted to see her youngest brother. Both my father and mother practically begged everyone in the family for them to be able to come see him, in his final hours; however, everyone in the family said that he and his wife said, “no”. Then as a final attempt, my parents visited their Pastor, and begged to go see them, fully disclosing to them of the past, but having forgiven for that of them. Mind you that all of the other relatives were around to advise…both he and his wife refused, eventhough the pastor went to their home personally to go and spiritually advise them to allow for my parents to go see him. I remember praying that same night about asking God, to give me the strength to completely forgive my uncle for what happened, seeing that these may be his finally days, and that I may never get the apology that I so longed for, for 18 years; and for him to allow for my Mom to go see him. Later, I found out that same night, after the pastor had left after refusing to allow for my parents to come see him, my uncle had taken a turn for the worse, and needed to be rushed to the hospital. And with that, my uncle and his wife took it as a sign that they should reconsider. So my parents were able to go see him, and within a couple of hours later of my parents seeing him….my uncle died.

Some things that God revealed to me about my uncle’s death:

  1. It was EXACTLY 18 years to the day, of when my uncle did what he did to me (I wrote the letter to my parents after they had left –2/19/1997); my uncle died (2/17/2015). 20150802_154743
  2. His oldest son is the EXACT SAME AGE as I was (when my uncle did all of this to me) when my uncle died.
  3. The following verse came to me, during the time of when I prayed the night the Pastor came over to advise my uncle and his wife to allow for my parents to see him, and he refused…Isaiah 54:17

“no weapon forged against you will prevail,
    and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
    and this is their vindication from me, declares the Lord.”

When I attended his Wake and Funeral, I have to admit, it was pretty difficult, facing all of the pain and sorrows all at once. Some of these people I had not seen for 20 years, let alone this uncle; and a few others I have seen in later years. I decided to go because of what I remembered my spiritual mentor telling me…and that is that it is my duty to forgive, and close this chapter in my life by attending. That my uncle’s story is already written in God’s Book of Life. I realized that though my uncle passed on, and that his life before God, the Father is already set in stone, my life is not yet. So I still have the responsibility in front of God, to continue to refine my soul, through spiritually feeding it with the Holy Scripture; so that it will be fit to enter God’s Eternal Kingdom. I still have the responsibility to continue to witness God’s Holy Gospel, through which He showed us through the Life and Death of His, Jesus Christ (Yeshuay, Yeshu Christu, Yeshua). God showed me that he counts every single tear that is shed by His Faithful Servants, and does not allow any one of them unaccounted for. He showed me that despite whomever may not see value in me, that He saw value and purpose for me. Ever since this incidence, I have never felt alone. It was my responsibility to forgive my uncle, and that is what I did.

I am still trying to pray about the meaning or correlation (if there is anything) of the death of another uncle (1-2 months later), who was the one responsible for bailing out the people involved (who were caught at the state border).

Testimony Continued in Part 4…..

What It Means To Believe In An Unseen God (Part 2)

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THE POWER OF THE PERSONAL TESTIMONY THAT GOD CUSTOMMADE FOR YOU….

From the moments of affliction, we have the choice to make it a moment of human self pity, or to see the lesson or wisdom that God is trying to show us during this time, to which He allows for us to break away from the ways of this world. It is through the trials of this earth, that God, allows for us to make the choice to learn what He teaches, if we ALLOW for Him to. He never does anything without giving us the choice, to use our freewill. He teaches in these moments to seek the Divine Laws of Love. In the moments of affliction, especially when someone else we know is afflicting the trial on us, God takes note to see if we go to the Old Testament’s (before Jesus Christ’s time) of “Eye for an Eye”; or if we call ourselves as the Peacemakers, do we “turn the other cheek”.  Jesus Christ said in His Sermon on the Mount that He had come here to change the law of “eye for an eye”; and that it is required for us to turn the other cheek. So with Jesus Christ (Yeshu Christu, Yeshuay, Yeshua) the entire philosophy of “eye for an eye” was no longer valid. Wrath is up to God, not us, as Man. Jesus Christ went to the extent of receiving a sentence that He did not deserve, and died of it….to show the extent to which we were to do this. Mahatma Gandhi, though being Hindu, but openly admitting taking the teachings of Jesus Christ as his own had said it best by saying:

“Noncooperation with Evil is just as much as our responsibility, as it is to do good.”

Even he understood what God’s Divine Laws of Love meant, in ways of Nonviolence, Unconditional Love, and Mercy. It is more than words, it is a change of heart, which will be seen and felt by the actions witnessed by all of that born again soul. Even evil can not deny such a soul. A born again soul does not dictate to others that they can not change their mistakes from the past, or to love them as they are. This is what evil dictates, to accept in the darkness that is in human nature. God says, He knows the purity to which He originally created Mankind to be, as initially seen in the Garden of Eden, in Adam and Eve, before they took on the temptation of sin introduced by evil. God knows the original greatness that He created for Mankind to be, which is why it is our duty to serve others…to endure trials to rid ourselves from the darkness that we were born with, in human nature. We are to keep on refining and changing ourselves, with the goal of our Example, Jesus Christ (Yeshuay, Yeshu Christu). This is what Gandhi meant….we are to change, out of our love for seeking the Divine Truth, and not settling for Evil’s intention to remain in our sinful human nature, which is full of wrath, hatred and violence. But it is our duty to not cooperate with evil, at all costs, to the point of which Jesus Christ, as the Son of God, demonstrated with His Own Life…to the point of death. If God says His Ways are not of the world’s ways but are beyond them, that means we our so conscious of our souls belonging to God, and His Eternal Kingdom, that we realize that our sole purpose is to seek the ways of the Divine Laws of Love to the point of not caring how much is inflicted to the earthly body.

The Unseen God, knows even the deepest and most inner thoughts of our hearts, minds and souls…and will judge accordingly. Human logic is so restricted that many can not see beyond what the human 5 senses can provide them. These are the things that evil can manipulate. But when you believe in an Unseen God, you will begin to see the things of this world for its true value within the Eternal Kingdom. And through each trial given on this earth, where God separates you from the logic of this world, He gives us the opportunity to see if we choose to seek the Divine Laws of Love of the Eternal Kingdom or not. This is the conviction He provides through a personal testimony through which one has used their freewill to choose to see God’s Wisdom in the trial, and become born again from it.

Yes we are to forgive everyone. Even those who harm us. But God does say that any wrong should not be tolerated, especially with the knowledge He provides through the conviction of a personal testimony. It only knows truth, and nothing else. And will not tolerate any violations to the Divine Laws of Love (ways of Nonviolence, Unconditional Love, and Mercy)…either caused by others or within themselves. So beware, evil will try to convince and convict those who are followers of the Omnipresent God’s Divine Laws of Love, that they do not unconditionally love. Not true…..there is unconditional love…but not unconditional approval for what they represent in their thoughts, actions, and words. God is so pure, that any speck of impurity can not stand before His Presence in the Eternal Kingdom. And we are to keep changing and refining ourselves in accordance to God’s Divine Laws of Love.

The minute God reveals to us the wrong we committed to someone, even if it was many years ago, it is our obligation in front of God, to make it right. We are held accountable for each piece of knowledge that God reveals to us…and any hinderance to carrying out that knowledge is only a hinderance of that soul, caused by evil. Remember Evil’s ways are restricted to the ways of this world..which means they are only temporary; the Unseen Omnipresent God’s Ways are Permanent and Eternal.

“So those who are last will be first, and those who are first will be last.”-Matthew 20:16 (PART II)

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You see, when we focus on attaining the things of this world, we are not putting God first in our life. God clearly says that He is not of the world’s ways. When we focus on attaining the things of this world, no matter the reason, this is an opening for evil to grab a foothold into our life, to reshackle us to it. Jesus Christ endured all that He did, to unshackle us from evil. Yeshuay unshackled us from that sin committed in the Garden of Eden, upon His Death on the Cross, for ALL OF MANKIND. This is why Jesus said, “Give up everything, and follow me.” As the Son of God, He knew what God wants of our lives, in order to be able to enter back into the Eternal Paradise. And we have to separate ourselves from the ways of this world, because they are not from God. This understanding or enlightenment can be seen in others who did not practice Christianity. Lets have a further look at this.

Those who have claimed to be enlightened by a divine source, also demonstrated a life to which is similar to what Jesus Christ preached, which is a life, that is devoid of the worldly things, and to become humbled in knowing with each day that we live, we are in the very Presence of the Omnipresent Father of Creation. If we look at the lives of the Dalai Lama, Buddha, Mahatma Gandhi, Mother Teresa, Sai Baba, etc. (to name a few) they all lead lives that are devoid of the world’s riches and ways, in ways of love, peace, and nonviolence. And their path to seeking Divinity‘s Ways of Life, were the focus of their lives. Yes…nonviolence is very important in Divinity’s Laws of Life and Love. Why? Only the Creator has the right or jurisdiction, to create or destroy the creations. The creation does not have that jurisdiction to do that. This is why Jesus Christ said, in His Sermon on the Mount, “That I have come here to tell you, instead of “eye for an eye”, that you must “turn the other cheek.” When Jesus Christ was being taken away from the Garden of Gesthemane, the night before He was being crucified, by the Roman soldiers, St. Peter, took his sword to defend Jesus Christ from a soldier, and chopped off one of his ears. Jesus scolded him, and condemned for doing such a thing, and healed the soldier of the wound. Violence by any means justified in the wordly sense, is not justified by Divinty.

God sees how far His Beloved Creations have come from the original greatness that He created for them to be. But He says, that those who have truly found Divine Enlightenment, will understand His Ways. Will understand the true value of the worldly ways. This is why Jesus said, “So those who are last will be first, and those who are first will be last.” –Matthew 20:16. Because God knows, just as His Son, Jesus Christ endured persecution and ridicule, since the time of His Birth on the earth; that evil will make sure that God’s Divine Laws of Love will be forgotten or never known by the many. But those who do know of it, and have found its true meaning, will not be accepted by the world. In fact, by the world’s parameters, they will be the “last”….they will be the “ridiculed” or least understood. Will not be “accepted” or “suppressed for the truth that they know”. But what Jesus demonstrated on the Cross was, that eventhough He was considered last on this earth….He is first in the Kingdom of Heaven, in God’s Eternal Paradise. That the ways of this world is not what defined Him, but the ways of the Divine Father of Creation. In this, with His SELFLESS SACRIFICIAL act of dying as the salvation for all of Mankind, from evil…He showed that Evil’s ways are temporary. And that God’s Wrath, is permanent.

A Letter to My Divine Father

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Dear Father God:

Thank you for allowing for me to wake up to another day to live. I know that it is only through Your Great Love and Mercy, that you saw it fit for me to do so.  I look out my window today, and see what all you have given me to see. The beautiful sun, that beats warmly on my skin, and a light so radiant, that no manmade illumination can compare. Nothing in this world gives me more peace than when I talk to you, Father. And you so kindly answer me back, with such gentleness and love. Oh how I feel so unworthy at times, for the love that you give me each day, Yet, you show me everyday, that I am worth more than “sparrows in the sky”; and “take care of me, as the lillies in the valley”. I begin and end each day, with my thoughts to you. I just can not imagine any other day to live, without doing so. For my heart reminds me each time, that I belong to you.

As the days go by, my heart grows more weary and sad. I see so many people in pain, and feeling so alone; forgetting that You are waiting with arms wide open, for them to come to You. Many are lost, and trying to find a way to you; but they just refuse to see the ways that You show them, how to. Or they are so lost, that they just do not have anyone in their worlds to show them how to find you. Father, I know only You alone can illuminate one’s path….I can only point to the direction to Your Path; or even plant the seeds of Your Love. Please help them to find their way back to you; and to give me the strength to remain on it.

Father, Abba, I know you have told me that my faith should be tested, so that I can come back to the perfection that you had once created for Mankind to be. You have promised victory through You, through Jesus Christ, Your Son; and I believe that with all my heart. Please just give me the strength to endure, so that I may see Your Face, one day. You have told me over and over again, that you are not of the ways of this world. And that you do not judge one based on their actions, but on the intentions of one’s heart and soul. I know for this reason, that I am no one to judge another one of my brothers and sisters; but with Your Guidance, please give me the discernment of what is from You, and that which is not.

Abba, thank you for giving me the chance to make things right with You. Thank you for all that you have given me, within this little life of mine. Thank you for giving me life, so that I can witness to Your Great Love. Through earthly trials and challenges, that even Jesus Christ, Himself was not exempt from, Your Love extended as far as to enduring what I may go through on this earth, to show me, that You understand what I go through. You loved me as much as to take the punishment that was intended for Mankind because of its sinful human nature, and took it as your own, so that I may be given the choice to return back to You; rather than to be lost forever in Evil’s darkness. Thank you for never giving up on me.

 

Lovingly,

Your Daughter