In all this, God has shown me His Great Power, which is both reassuring, and bone chilling at the same time, for me. All with great reverence for God, the Father of Creation. He showed me in all this that God never forgets the tears shed by a loyal, humble heart, and the need for forgiveness, because this is what He commands of us. It was 18 years of tears, of having holidays without family, and them continuously trying to justify why they all took active part in the support of this event, so that they can hide the truth from now the new inlaws coming into the family (otherwise it will show their true nature), and the younger cousins that were too young to know what happened. God also taught me, that no matter what earthly title someone holds in your life, mother, father, uncle, aunt, cousin, friend, stranger… that evil will use ANYONE for its purpose. This is why God states that He should be first and foremost in one’s life. So that we can have the guidance of the Holy Spirit to help us discern the deception of evil. This is when God made me understand that His Ways are not of the world’s ways, but are beyond them. That our reliance in life, should be solely on Him, and He will always provide. He means business when it comes to this. At the same time, for putting God first and foremost in our lives, we will be tested and tried even harder by Satan and his demons. Because if we hold on to that unforgiveness, this only allows for Satan and his demons to grab onto souls faster. I can honestly say that I have forgiven my Uncle, though never officially hearing the words “I’m sorry” from him. As to what I think my uncle came away with in all this, well, that is up to God now, as to determining his repentance, and whether it was true in His Eyes, for what he did to me and family, on that day. Upon his last breath on this earth, his story was written in its final form, in God’s Book. Those of us still on this earth, still have another chance to make things right in God’s Eyes, as to the harm we cause one another….and the forgiveness that we share. Love and forgiveness is what God DEMANDS and COMMANDS for us to do, and this is what Jesus Christ showed us on the Cross.
God showed me that He truly does protect His Children….and that He will let those that have offended us, know that they are getting some kind of reproof or correction based on what was done in violation to you, as His Faithful Servant. He showed me that there is no expiration date on a wrong committed, so the very moment that God reveals to us the wrong we committed to another member of our fellow man, it is our responsibility to make it right, at that moment, to which God reveals it to us. If we don’t He will correct us or punish us for not listening and obeying. He also showed me that He is so holy that He does keep account of every violation committed against His Divine Laws of Love. So it is our responsibility to continuously repent, to lead to the conversion of the mind, body, and soul; to become born again in soul and spirit. With parental care, for those that carry the testimony of His Unconditional Love, He puts you under His Providence. That someone who was once comfortable in living in the ways of this world, no longer is. I was transformed in this experience, to know of the Justice God can provide; and to know that we are required to recognize the sinful human nature, and to continuously repent for our violations against His Divine Laws of Love, even until our last breaths on this earth.
I do not rejoice in any of this in what has happened in the earthly sense, but in this experience, it has become my testimony in how God is a JUST Father; yet to continuously refine ourselves, to rid ourselves of our sinful human nature, we are required to go through the trials, to break ourselves away from the world’s ways, so that the Holy Spirit can enter and refine our souls; since God says His Ways are not of the world’s, but are beyond them. Life on this earth may not be FAIR….but God requires us to be tested to see if our conversion is true. He is a Pure and Holy God, and our sinful human nature can not stand before His Pure and Holy Throne. We have to be continuous refined…continuously tested. This is my testimony of God’s great power and mercy. May all glory be His now and forever.