For those of us given a testimony, those were given to us as a tool to use within our ministry and as a rememberance to even ourselves, about the Existence of God, the Father of Creation. It serves as a tool, to show others going through similar situations about God’s willingness to come to our aid or to come into our lives, as long as we surrender to His Will and His Ways. God is so pure, that He can not have any thing that is bound to the ways of this world, because He says that His Ways are beyond those that are found here on Earth; they abide to ways of Selfless Love, Nonviolence, and Mercy. Such ways are not self gaining, but in service to others.
Testimonies are evidence in someone’s life, that serve as examples of God’s Existence on this earth. Such testimonies are granted to anyone, not just those that are walking in His Ways already, but to anyone that God has the hope of changing in heart, mind, body, and soul.
When looking back at my own testimony, I often wondered about why did it need to happen? Or why did it have to happen the way it did? I think a lot of people feel that way, when they are going through what they/we all later on come to find out is for the purpose of our testimony. I look back now, and I know that I was only able to get through what I had, because of God alone. There was no way I could have overcome that with any human strength, or by any measures of my own, or my family’s. This was the first time, I personally started to fast and pray in my life, though being born and raised a Christian I truly do believe that some things are predestined to happen, to a person. And I also believe what Mother Teresa had said because of this:
God entrusts those who He believes will uphold His Ways, to the point of feeling convicted in showing others of His Unconditionally Loving Ways. What we must be vigilant to is how evil will use our best of intentions, to mocking and even distorting the purpose of us sharing our testimonies. The people who were a part of our testimonies, in an adverse way, may not want to admit to their ways, and accuse you of being vengeful, in order to prevent you from sharing your testimony to help others out. God still tells you to share your testimony…because you never know who you can save through it, and that is the most important in all this. God, also says that many may just outright not want to hear or read it for the fear of knowing what they feared the most, that there is a God, who hears and sees all. God, says, this may save others too…so we should go on and share it, and it will be in their hands whether they decide to hear it for the testimony that it is.
We should always put God and firstmost in our lives Evil will try to distort this in so many ways. In the end God, knows that because His Children denied binding and shackling themselves to the ways of this world that they will be considered the LEAST of this world. This is what the prophets and servants in times past have shown us, and this is what Jesus Christ, His Son, showed us as He roamed this Earth, and died on the Cross at Calvary. The Holy Spirit guides such souls that carries the Testimony that God had hand picked for them. It is up to us who were given the testimony to chose whether or not to use it for His Work for the Eternal Kingdom or not.
So with that said, it has been awhile since I have shared my testimony, so please have a look at the following links to see my testimony. May it bless you the way it has me, in having some insight to the ways of God, the Father’s, Kingdom. The links below are the links to my testimony:
May we all continue the good fight, and know of God’s Endless Mercy and Unconditional Love. Take up your Cross, just as Jesus Christ did, on the Cross at Calvary, as the Son of God, that roamed this earth. Though belonging to the Highest of all Courts, He took on the earthly punishment of a criminal, though not comitting any crime, and suffered the death of one. He lived by the means of a pauper, though being the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords….we become the cornerstone when we are considered the last.
In all this, God has shown me His Great Power, which is both reassuring, and bone chilling at the same time, for me. All with great reverence for God, the Father of Creation. He showed me in all this that God never forgets the tears shed by a loyal, humble heart, and the need for forgiveness, because this is what He commands of us. It was 18 years of tears, of having holidays without family, and them continuously trying to justify why they all took active part in the support of this event, so that they can hide the truth from now the new inlaws coming into the family (otherwise it will show their true nature), and the younger cousins that were too young to know what happened. God also taught me, that no matter what earthly title someone holds in your life, mother, father, uncle, aunt, cousin, friend, stranger… that evil will use ANYONE for its purpose. This is why God states that He should be first and foremost in one’s life. So that we can have the guidance of the Holy Spirit to help us discern the deception of evil. This is when God made me understand that His Ways are not of the world’s ways, but are beyond them. That our reliance in life, should be solely on Him, and He will always provide. He means business when it comes to this. At the same time, for putting God first and foremost in our lives, we will be tested and tried even harder by Satan and his demons. Because if we hold on to that unforgiveness, this only allows for Satan and his demons to grab onto souls faster. I can honestly say that I have forgiven my Uncle, though never officially hearing the words “I’m sorry” from him. As to what I think my uncle came away with in all this, well, that is up to God now, as to determining his repentance, and whether it was true in His Eyes, for what he did to me and family, on that day. Upon his last breath on this earth, his story was written in its final form, in God’s Book. Those of us still on this earth, still have another chance to make things right in God’s Eyes, as to the harm we cause one another….and the forgiveness that we share. Love and forgiveness is what God DEMANDS and COMMANDS for us to do, and this is what Jesus Christ showed us on the Cross.
God showed me that He truly does protect His Children….and that He will let those that have offended us, know that they are getting some kind of reproof or correction based on what was done in violation to you, as His Faithful Servant. He showed me that there is no expiration date on a wrong committed, so the very moment that God reveals to us the wrong we committed to another member of our fellow man, it is our responsibility to make it right, at that moment, to which God reveals it to us. If we don’t He will correct us or punish us for not listening and obeying. He also showed me that He is so holy that He does keep account of every violation committed against His Divine Laws of Love. So it is our responsibility to continuous repent, to lead to the conversion of the mind, body, and soul; to become born again in soul and spirit. With parental care, for those that carry the testimony of His Unconditional Love, He puts you under His Providence. That someone who was once comfortable in leaving in the ways of this world, no longer is. I was transformed in this experience, to know of the Justice God can provide; and to know that we are required to recognize the sinful human nature, and to continuously repent for our violations against His Divine Laws of Love, even until our last breaths on this earth.
I do not rejoice in any of this in what has happened in the earthly sense, but in this experience, it has become my testimony in how God is a JUST Father; yet to continuously refine ourselves, to rid ourselves of our sinful human nature, we are required to go through the trials, to break ourselves away from the world’s ways, so that the Holy Spirit can enter and refine our souls; since God says His Ways are not of the world’s, but are beyond them. Life on this earth may not be FAIR….but God requires us to be tested to see if our conversion is true. He is a Pure and Holy God, and our sinful human nature can not stand before His Pure and Holy Throne. We have to be continuous refined…continuously tested. This is my testimony of God’s great power and mercy. May all glory be His now and forever.
God is not FAIR…but He is JUST: My Testimony: Where God is Faithful to Those That are Persecuted (Part 3)
My Testimony Continued…….
The school saw that these guys were hanging around for a long time….so a warrant was issued for their arrest. My parents had dropped the order of protection and case against my uncle, in fear of my safety, though I begged them not to do so, and reassured them that I am ok…with God’s verses up above. The guys were eventually caught at the border about to cross over to the next state. I came to later find out that the husband of sister #2, whose son was staying at our house, which was told by my cousin, himself, to my father; bailed out the 3 culprits (one being my uncle’s brother-in-law; and sister #3’s son-1/4 older cousins, was the one sent from the US, with the money needed to fund this whole stunt in abroad…YES, they paid people to come after me). So in essence, not only did any of the other siblings get involved in helping me and my family out…..but they were taking an active role in it; and supporting the cause of this one uncle.
After this incident, these 6 siblings decided to break away from having any relationship WITH US so that the truth can be rewritten to protect themselves, and to justify what happened. It is always easier to put the blame on 1 family, as opposed to the 6 standing together and condoning this to occur, I suppose. They had to rewrite history, in order to hide the truth, so that their lives, with their children can move on. Whenever asked to talk things through for the past 18 years, whenever we bumped into them within the community, to mend things, the saying “no need to talk about the past”…or to “forgive and forget” were said. Who is the father of deception and lies….Satan himself; allowing for pride to get in the way of mending with full disclosure of the wrong, to the wronged party. This is why till this day, I do not hesitate to say “I’m sorry” to someone, because I know how it feels to the extreme, to be wronged.
WHAT FATHER GOD REVEALED TO ME, IN THIS TESTIMONY….
I learned at this time that it was only God that protected me from any harm, during this time in my life. He put the right people and circumstances in front of me, to provide His Protection. Not only that, He was speaking to me through Scripture. He called me out to be His Own, and that I can rely on Him during one the most traumatizing moments in my life, where all earthly logic has failed, and no one around you understands. Till this day, many can not understand how this was acceptable to be done within a family. But from that moment on, I dedicated my life to God, and in a letter I found that I wrote to my parents at that time, I kept to my promise as to keeping Jesus Christ’s commandment of “turning the other cheek”; instead of even thinking of vengeance (picture of letter seen below). Instead, I put it all in God’s Hands, for His Will to be done of my life, and dedicated myself to God.
Fast forward to about 18 years later. This same uncle who did this to me (who is the youngest of the 7 siblings), my family has come to know was about to die of cancer. My mother being the oldest, wanted to see her youngest brother. Both my father and mother practically begged everyone in the family for them to be able to come see him, in his final hours; however, everyone in the family said that he and his wife said, “no”. Then as a final attempt, my parents visited their Pastor, and begged to go see them, fully disclosing to them of the past, but having forgiven for that of them. Mind you that all of the other relatives were around to advise…both he and his wife refused, eventhough the pastor went to their home personally to go and spiritually advise them to allow for my parents to go see him. I remember praying that same night about asking God, to give me the strength to completely forgive my uncle for what happened, seeing that these may be his finally days, and that I may never get the apology that I so longed for, for 18 years; and for him to allow for my Mom to go see him. Later, I found out that same night, after the pastor had left after refusing to allow for my parents to come see him, my uncle had taken a turn for the worse, and needed to be rushed to the hospital. And with that, my uncle and his wife took it as a sign that they should reconsider. So my parents were able to go see him, and within a couple of hours later of my parents seeing him….my uncle died.
Some things that God revealed to me about my uncle’s death:
- It was EXACTLY 18 years to the day, of when my uncle did what he did to me (I wrote the letter to my parents after they had left –2/19/1997); my uncle died (2/17/2015).
- His oldest son is the EXACT SAME AGE as I was (when my uncle did all of this to me) when my uncle died.
- The following verse came to me, during the time of when I prayed the night the Pastor came over to advise my uncle and his wife to allow for my parents to see him, and he refused…Isaiah 54:17
“no weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
and this is their vindication from me, declares the Lord.”
When I attended his Wake and Funeral, I have to admit, it was pretty difficult, facing all of the pain and sorrows all at once. Some of these people I had not seen for 20 years, let alone this uncle; and a few others I have seen in later years. I decided to go because of what I remembered my spiritual mentor telling me…and that is that it is my duty to forgive, and close this chapter in my life by attending. That my uncle’s story is already written in God’s Book of Life. I realized that though my uncle passed on, and that his life before God, the Father is already set in stone, my life is not yet. So I still have the responsibility in front of God, to continue to refine my soul, through spiritually feeding it with the Holy Scripture; so that it will be fit to enter God’s Eternal Kingdom. I still have the responsibility to continue to witness God’s Holy Gospel, through which He showed us through the Life and Death of His, Jesus Christ (Yeshuay, Yeshu Christu, Yeshua). God showed me that he counts every single tear that is shed by His Faithful Servants, and does not allow any one of them unaccounted for. He showed me that despite whomever may not see value in me, that He saw value and purpose for me. Ever since this incidence, I have never felt alone. It was my responsibility to forgive my uncle, and that is what I did.
I am still trying to pray about the meaning or correlation (if there is anything) of the death of another uncle (1-2 months later), who was the one responsible for bailing out the people involved (who were caught at the state border).
Testimony Continued in Part 4…..